babe, I remember a couple weeks ago when we were walking from grandmas to seth and kaylas….during our walk i felt the Lord tell me to close my eyes. I heard him say “Do you trust me that i trust him to lead you? to protect you? provide for you? do you trust Him?”
You didn’t notice, but i started crying at the amazing reality that you, tobi feil, are now will be my leader. you are my protector, you are my provider. he trusts you.
As i was walking with you, i kept wanting to open my eyes and see if i was gonna run into something or trip, but you in those moments held my hand so tight and i knew i was so safe and so secure in your leadership.
You are so confident in who you are in Jesus. You know that you are a Son of God. You haven’t or will not even think twice about it. and this is why i am head over heels for you Tobi. This is why i am standing before you right now, because you know where u stand before the Father. It humbles me to be able to call you my husband. Such a incredible gift God has given to me, to live life with a Man who isn’t easily shaken, who listens and obeys to His Fathers voice. I cant wait to see all the nations, all the people we love, all the lives transformed by the leadership of your trust in Jesus. You are the kind of person Jesus’ trusts.
I just imagine the Father writing out our lives, even before time, and as he was writing this day, i can see him laughing with joy and crying with proud tears at the same time! it overwhelms me that God the Father is in this room now and is completely in love with not just me, or not just you, but us. as us. He has been so faithful to our relationship. He has been the fuel to our faith when we thought we couldn’t love anymore. He has been for us this whole time, never against us! I think the way we are crazy about each other is nothing compared to his beautiful obsession over us. Thank you for always showing me that it was Him who put us and keeps us together. Thank you for challenging me to see him who he truly is. thank you for gently removing the blinders of lies i was believing. Thank you for always encouraging me to encourage. Thank you for being the person who makes me laugh most, the person who frustrates me the most cause your always so nice when I’m a turd. Thanks for being you and only wanting me, no one else but me.
you are the most courageous man i know. it took such courage and faith for you to believe this really could work out. such faith for us to even stand here this very day and vow our hearts to one another. you are a man of radical faith and simple obedience.
you’ve won my heart the day that you listened to me for an hour as i ugly cried in front of you. and here we are love, out of all the fights the past couple months, from germany, to israel to america... I cant believe its me who gets to give my heart to you, out of all the amazing women in this world, its me who gets to give my heart away to you.
you tobias simeon feil, are one of a kind. and your mine.which is my favourite part about you.
what a life we have ahead of us.
i promise to always seek Jesus heart and his heart for me first. I will give to you unconditional respect even when i really don’t want to. I will encourage and support your passions, your goals and dreams. I promise to try really hard to listen to you, cause you are worth listening to. I will be there for you to speak truth over you in times of doubt. I will make you laugh when i know you need to. i vow to be jsut me and fully me and no one else, cause thats all you really want.
thanks for loving me everyday and in everyday you knew i needed it.